we are on a quick break in the middle of my sin/salvation in the old testament class. i've been journaling all class (call it boredom, call it lack of motivation...or call it inspiration), and i realized something crucial.
i'm at seminary. i study God all the time. but i don't talk about God. i haven't talked about God in forever, it feels like. studying theology looks past God. valuable learning, but not valuable faith formation. if God has seemed hidden from me for a while (perhaps close to two years), maybe i have just forgotten to look for him. if i close my eyes, how am i supposed to see?
i remember points in college when i couldn't help but see God everywhere, in the good and in the bad. everything found its end and meaning in God. what sense is there in asking God to be more apparent in my daily life if i'm not willing to look?
it is time. it is lent, and lent is a season of turning. turning back to God. this lent is the time for me to let myself shake my fears and uncertainties, let down my walls, and really see what i can see of God when i actually remember to open my eyes.
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