ground's too dry

i want it to rain tonight. i want it to downpour, to thunderstorm. i want to wake up to thunder and be scared like i always am: lying on my stomach, eyes buried in my pillow so i don't have to see the lightning and blankets pulled tight around my ears so i don't have to hear the thunder. but i'm in the mood for a big rainstorm. i want to wake up to morning thunder, to greyish-green skies, to a dim and wet morning that is strangely peaceful despite the rage of the storm. i'm not sure why i want the rain. why a drizzle wouldn't do. why there has to be thunder and wind and lightning. but i suppose i feel like things are too dry around here. they need to be drenched and wrung out.