irrational thoughts

There are days at seminary when I really miss my former passions and wish that I were studying them. Earlier this semester, I found myself wishing that I could pursue an advanced degree in creative writing (I was a religion/English double major...who took all writing classes and few lit classes). Right now, I miss my former music-geek self. Last night, we rehearsed the Bach cantata we're doing for our spring concert with the professional soloists and chamber orchestra who will be joining us, and I felt more in my element than I do in any religion class. Singing Bach professionally is a secret dream of mine, and last night was the closest I've ever gotten to it. More than that, though, I've been looking through both the Princeton University and Westminster Choir College catalogues in preparation for my forthcoming registration. Since the seminary has reciprocal agreements with both institutions where I could take classes there, I have vowed that I would take advantage of that opportunity. I have one year left of seminary, and I must must must take one class at each place next year. It would be a waste if I didn't. Browsing the Westminster sacred music courses fueled a passion in me...I am totally lusting over both the Liturgies class and the Bach Cantata class. Then I made the mistake of looking at the Master of Sacred Music page....sigh. Right now, that is my dream - my current irrational thought. Wouldn't it be awesome to get a degree in sacred music??? Oh my do I want to do that.

::sigh::