when i'm alone...

someone gave me some very blessed words of wisdom tonight.

i don't like being alone when it isn't my choice. that is to say, when i'm alone and in a good mood, i feel like i chose to be alone and i feel content. when i'm alone and supremely lonely and bummed out, i feel like everybody left me alone and i am trapped in my loneliness.

but she reminded me of something...i say that i believe in God, right? not to sound trite, but even in those loneliest times, i must must must remember that i am NOT actually alone. maybe part of helping me get through the lonely times needs to involve digging deep into that spiritual place within my person. when i'm lonely, i need to get to a "God-place," be it prayer or reading my Bible or listening to hymns or whatever. it's a discipline, not easy, but worthwhile.

in times of loneliness, look for God. because God is always there. as i've been thinking a lot lately: God will forever seem hidden if i never think to actually look for him.

a psalm for the evening:

Vindicate me, O God, and defend my cause
against an ungodly people;
from those who are deceitful and unjust
deliver me!

For you are the God in whom I take refuge;
why have you cast me off?
Why must I walk about mournfully
because of the oppression of the enemy? O send out your light and your truth;
let them lead me;
let them bring me to your holy hill
and to your dwelling.
Then I will go to the altar of God,
to God my exceeding joy;
and I will praise you with the harp,
O God, my God. Why are you cast down, O my soul,
and why are you disquieted within me?
Hope in God; for I shall again praise him,
my help and my God.

::psalm 43::