something like january 1 (part 2)

i really want to feel smarter.

i used to be smart. i could do high school, even college...and i felt generally intellectual, capable, knowledgable...

i feel like as time goes by, i'm getting stupider. i'm not asking for things to come easily to me as much as i'm asking for things to stick with me and for motivation to return to me. i strongly believe that the more you use your brain, the more things your brain will do for you. that is to say, the more i feed my brain this summer, the more my brain will be able to do.

and then i might feel smart again.

resolution: read and write and think and love the fact that i have not only a heart and soul but a mind with which i can glorify God.